Rainbows and Black Unicorns

Tag: melanoma

  • Coping with Uncertainty in Cancer Treatment

    Wow how life has changed! I am now the patient with a diagnosis of 2types of breast cancer and skin cancer. All at the same time! The breast cancer is early stages but will require lumpectomy and radiation. The ugly growth on my back isn’t diagnosed until biopsy comes back. Doc said it was definitely…

  • been gone awhile

    WordPress has changed things and I find it really difficult to access this blog. I’ve missed typing out my feelings and since I have lost most of my support and my feelings are a bit crazy! Update: I was attending a grief support group but often felt like a fraud. Their partners were all dead.…

  • home

    I got home from my mini break and felt wonderful! Since I live with someone who is diet restricted it is such freedom to eat whatever I wanted! So many vegetables and some spicy new things. An hour after being at home I got hit with the most incredible exhaustion. I was almost sick I…

  • planning for the inevItable.

    I’m getting so much better with puppy loss. I imagine her surrounded by love and happiness and that helps me to move on. Friday is loopogram day. Hopefully, this CT will help pinpoint where leaks are and they can decide if there is any chance they can be repaired. Enterococcus is still present and really…

  • Vacay

    I’m away. Away from the house. Away from monitoring Amy’s pallor. Away from food prep, cleaning, feeding the cat, yard work. Instead, I’m in a fantastic hotel room with a pub downstairs. Today, I plan to sit by the lake and process all that’s happened in the past few months. Im sitting at my hotel…

  • break time

    I’ve taken a wee bit of a break because it/I was too negative and had nothing to be positive about. Here’s a bit of positivity…Amy’s cancer didn’t show any sign of recurring. Yay! However, her kidney was full of fluid so one week ago she had surgery and is still dealing with discomfort. During my…

  • caring

    SELF-CARE FOR CARERS  ‘While caring for a partner can be very rewarding, it can also place a strain on relationships,’ says Carers UK’s Emily Holzhausen. More than 75% of carers responding to the charity’s State of Caring survey said they felt stressed and anxious; 69% found it difficult to get a good night’s sleep and…

  • sad…

    some days it all catches up with me and I get sad. today I’m sad and mad about the times people have crushed my spirit by being critical or judgemental of me. By the lack of respecting my boundaries. By the losses. Like the time I asked if I could crash at someone’s house then…

  • what can i say?

    Amy has yet again another infection. Surgeon returned her call at 830pm. Ordered more drugs and admitted the surgery from last week won’t solve the infection issue. It’s outta his wheelhouse to fix it. sigh…big sigh… Monday we meet with oncology surgeons to discuss options. They will likely need to take healthy tissue from her…

  • im sorry

    im sorry I can’t be more positive. im sorry I can’t be more resilient. im sorry I’m so scared of the future. im sorry I set boundaries that you find hard to respect. im sorry I’m a challenge for you to understand. im sorry my life has had such a terrible impact on your life.…