what happens when the caregiver becomes the patient?

We’re dealing with rapidly aging parents which is taking a toll on what little energy we have left.

it appears I might have breast cancer. So far there’s a 75% chance according to the tests I’ve had done so far. Core biopsy on dec 9. I’m nervous. Trying so hard to be ok but I was so depleted going into this. Not strong just a bowl of jelly. No form. No substance. Just mush.
I’m sure it’s early and can be treated with a little surgery. My biggest loss is friends. Not having anyone I can lean on. No one I can cry and scream with. How did my life get to this point? I must have been exceptionally evil in a past life.
So terrified to tell anyone for fear I will be dismissed, minimized, told I’m exaggerating or ignored. Mostly I expect to be ignored

Amy has surgery dec 27. While it’s minor she haemorrhaged after the sept one.

we have no Christmas plans. So sad. Can’t take on that project but it would have been nice to be included somewhere.

and then there’s the 4 parents all over 90 and none in good health.

yup, I’m feeling sorry for myself cuz no one else will.