Rainbows and Black Unicorns

Tag: grief

  • Still the anger persists.

    I guess I won’t stop feeling it until it gets resolved. Haven’t figured that out yet. Maybe I should just move away. Amy still hasn’t heard from the magic surgeon but she’s been relentless about calling and asking where she’s at. It appears the referral has been made and now waiting for it to be…

  • Anger as an entity

    I might have learnt something about anger this week. If anger is an object what does it look like? Mine is male (sorry, nothing personal), it’s very large, very hairy, controlling, frightening and aggressive. Basically, a monster. What I realized is that monster can be tamed. I can banish it beyond my walls. I can…

  • So about that burn out

    Brain fog, low energy, can’t make decisions, can’t handle any stress, avoiding all social situations and lack of hope are all showing me that I’m beyond stressed and have moved into severe burnout. Sad but true. It doesn’t matter how many articles I read, how much talk therapy I get I’m still burnt out. I…

  • What is caregiver burnout?

    Caregiver burnout is a state of physical, emotional and mental exhaustion that can happen when you dedicate time and energy to manage the health and safety of someone else. Caregivers who experience burnout may feel tired, stressed, withdrawn, anxious and depressed. Caregiver burnout can impact a person in various ways, including physically, psychologically, financially and…

  • the same

    Life is still the same. Amy’s still fighting infections and my anxiety is controlling my life. Amy looks green, her urostomy bag is noisy sounding like a waterfall at times and it smells. Antibiotics? Probably the cause.Me…I hear all the noises and worry that this isn’t normal or healthy. She refuses to ask anyone about…