Coping with Uncertainty in Cancer Treatment

Wow how life has changed! I am now the patient with a diagnosis of 2types of breast cancer and skin cancer. All at the same time!
The breast cancer is early stages but will require lumpectomy and radiation.
The ugly growth on my back isn’t diagnosed until biopsy comes back. Doc said it was definitely skin cancer but could be anything from Basal cell to Melanoma. My guess is that it’s squamous cell. Rapidly growing and changing. Gross looking.

My mother had breast cancer and melanoma so I’m not shocked. Saddened but not surprised.
The waiting is the absolute worst. Waiting for skin pathology to come via email and waiting for surgery date. It wears me out. That alone is exhausting.

Whatever is going on I know it’s treatable. I have no fear that it will get out of hand. What does make me mad is my life is on hold once again. Cannot make plans, cannot hope for the future cuz I don’t know when the future will be. It’s outta my control. As an admitted control freak that’s a tough one.

Breathing. That’s one thing we can control. Breathe in peace. Breathe out fear.