sad…

some days it all catches up with me and I get sad.
today I’m sad and mad about the times people have crushed my spirit by being critical or judgemental of me. By the lack of respecting my boundaries. By the losses. Like the time I asked if I could crash at someone’s house then after 30 minutes asked me to leave. I had no where to go while I waited for Amy in ER. So, I spent 4 hours sitting in Tim Hortons crying. I hate inconveniencing people but she had offered numerous times so I decided to take her up on it. I am so dumb. I felt so humiliated. I felt so alone. Just like this blog. Why do I do it? No one reads it. I guess I do it for me so I can pretend one person might “get” me.