Ongoing

Still angry. I hate feeling this way. I’m getting triggered over the smallest things.

Amy’s capped off tube was causing her pain. Probably urine backing up so she added the leg bag. It’s not working 100% but it’s ok.
nurse comes this aft to change dressing and patch her up for Christmas. Hopefully we get thru it without incident.

I think the anger is cumulative over this past year and it’s such a bad time of year. It brings out the worst in people at times. Last Christmas was so traumatic for me and I seem to be reliving it and have no way to cope with the feelings.
laundry list of complaints: family, in-laws, friends, constant unrelenting doctor appts, ongoing fear, isolation and I have lost myself. No clue who I am anymore.
But the weather is awesome! ( felt I had to end on a positive note.