movie

There’s are new movie on Netflix called “leave the world behind”. Can’t comment on the movie cuz we haven’t finished it. But Julia Robert’s speaks a line in the first 2 minutes that made me laugh, “ I hate people”. Yup, me too!
I don’t want to be like this but gawd I’m so tired of all these infections, the smells and the worry. Amy had drugs for 3 days. Drugs gone, infection symptoms still present. Flank hurts, lower back hurts, urine smells, low energy and poop bag is so noisy and smells. I burn candles all day every day.
Since having her bladder removed her colostomy has not been normal in my opinion. She insists that it’s fine. It’s not.

so why do I hate people? I miss my ex friend. Boxing Day last year she told me I was too much. Haven’t spoken to her since.
I wish my family included me. That will never change.
Miss being able to be real with another ex friend. We now have a superficial relationship but I always feel I have to pretend to be positive. I hate that and right now I can’t fake it.
And all the other people whether they be coworkers, gay community, or acquaintances that have evaporated. Poof! Gone! I don’t get it but I do. We’re too much for most people. If only they knew how their callousness eroded us. We didn’t ask for cancer. We are victims of an insidious disease and the consequences of treatment. I am so angry…and sad. I
think getting a puppy is our way of bringing some joy into our life. People are not the answer. Is a puppy the answer? We shall see.