nervous

Another big appointment tomorrow. Unless you’re in this mess you can’t possibly understand what it’s like to live constantly on the edge.
If you read this could you please let me know. Sometimes it’s ok to just blather on to no one but right now I’d like to know that I have one ally.
Meeting with 2 surgeons at the same time means…what? A big complicated surgery or maybe they just like us? 😍 Who knows but some type of surgery is the only option. Will it happen before or after Christmas? That’s the only real unknown.
Amy has a UTI and she’s hoping they will deal with it tomorrow. She’s pale and she says her urine smells very strongly of ammonia.
I’ve pulled away from checking on her and suggesting she deal with it. If she doesn’t want to do that, that has to be her choice. I don’t know what it’s like inside her body. Only she can make that choice
Will this ever end?