Wow

Got back from the mountains exhausted.

The cat howled all night keeping us awake. Her blood work was good but she has arthritis and is now on pain meds. Trying to collect a urine sample but that’s hard to do with a cat!

Amy has gone away to visit a friend. I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I’m sad that I’m getting old and my body is breaking down and limiting me on what I can do. I’m concerned about Amy being away and getting sick. That probably won’t happen but I’m so traumatized that’s overwhelming me. And then there’s her upcoming surgery on the 23rd. When will it end?

I might have said something stupid to someone I know but I’m so paranoid now about talking to people that I can’t sort it out. Was I being insensitive or just talking my truth? Never seems to matter. I just seem to insult people no matter what I say. It’s just better to lie and pretend everything is ok.