Sadness

I wish I could record videos. Lack of ability and hating the way I look on camera prevent me from trying.

Amy’s sad today because she’s still so weak from sepsis. The drugs might be zapping her strength or the residual damage from sepsis might be the cause. She’s sad that she can’t do the things she wants. Appt with infectious disease’s tomorrow. Perhaps they’ll have some suggestions. Fingers crossed.

We leave for this disability lodge that the government operates on Wednesday. 5 days in the mountains! She can’t kayak cos she doesn’t have the strength but there are paved trails and with the walker she should be ok.

As usual, I’m lonely. I wish I had a friend that could encourage me thru this rough time. I wish I had someone I could lean on who wouldn’t judge me.

It’s not like cancer is the only thing we deal with. We have major family issues, insurance challenges, I have my own health injuries, and isolation. And…our cat goes to the vet today. Arthritis we think.

What can I say that’s positive and hopeful.? The weather is outstanding and the garden looks great. Amy’s last scan showed no cancer and we get to go to an amazing resort for $40/ night! How lucky are we?